Thursday, May 20, 2010

Brother Hamza on Making Good on His Mistakes



"I got home on November 30, 2009 after being incarcerated for 21 years, 6 months, and 20 days. See, I was married to a beautiful girl, Hafsa, who gave me a beautiful daughter, Ruqqiya. We had a beautiful life together. But, my daughter died of cancer at nine. Two years later, a man murdered my wife. So, I found the person who killed her and I killed him. I do not regret killing him at all. If I had my way, I would dig him up, bring him back to life, and kill him again. I will say this again, so that I am being real clear. I would dig him up, bring him back to life, and kill him again. I have no remorse whatsoever because he took away something very precious from me. You see these cracks in the sidewalk, that is how my heart feels every day. I don’t think that I will every marry again. She was the only one who made me happy. 

"I came back to Washington after I got out because this is where my problem began and, Insha’Allah, this is where my problems shall end. I came back to rectify what I f-ed up and work to change the areas I once corrupted and tainted. I was a tyrant on these streets until I bit into Islam whole heartedly while I was incarcerated.

"I came to the faith on August 25, 1980. I was walking on New Jersey and 4th St. NW on a Friday and heard the call to prayer. It pricked my heart and I walked into the Masjid and everything became as clear as day. But, I did not live as a good Muslim until I was locked up. Some of the most beautiful times that I have had in my life were when I was incarcerated, especially the Muslim holidays. I was the Imam when I was locked up in Kentucky. People looked to me for guidance, strength, and help. While I am free now, sometimes I miss those days of having such a position of responsibility now that I am living on the streets. 

"I have no family or home, but Allah places people in my path to help me. He places people in my path to feed me, clothe me, and give me knowledge. He also places people in my path, so I can give what I have back to them. There is a hadith in the Koran says that if you see a wrong, first change it with your hands. That means do something about it. If you can’t use your hands, use our mouth. That means speak on it. If not that, change it within your heart. I want to use my hands, words, and heart to spread wisdom and knowledge to people here. Allah has a purpose for me, which is to help my brothers and sisters and make good on my mistakes."

11 comments:

Sally said...

An eye for an eye makes the world go blind...

Jason said...

There is a really sad beauty to this story.

Paul said...

Jason, What is wrong with you? Since when is murder beautiful. This man is nothing more than a killer who can tell a good story. I feel no remorse for him, only for those he killed and his wife and daughter.

Aylin said...

This one is especially powerful.

Karyn D. said...

I can't tell if his eyes are kind or evil.

Outcaller said...

Paul, if you honestly have no understanding for someone who reacted to someone who killed his wife by killing that person, then you are an empty human being without a soul.

Yes revenge is wrong, and gets us nowhere, but the instinct to kill the killer of a loved one is entirely understandable.

A powerful story and I wish Brother Hamza well.

Megan Elizabeth Hilton said...
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Anonymous said...

Paul,

You're an asshat.

If somebody killed my wife or somebody that precious to me, you bet your ass I'll be out hunting you.

Dave O said...

While i agree that Paul's comments are way off base, I do not understand all of this sympathy around murder. Yes, we would all be angry after the murder of a loved one, but murder. Really. Taking someone else's life as a way to seek justice. That is not right under any circumstances.

While our laws and justice system may not always be just, we have organized ourselves into a society and moral code where we need to use these tools to avoid having people living like vigilantes.

So, feel strongly about his story, but do not condone his behavior. Murder under any circumstances is wrong. Period.

Megan Elizabeth Hilton said...
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RM said...

I read this story a few weeks ago and still have it on my mind (esp. the hadith in the Koran). If the people I most cherished died, I don't know what I'd do - I feel for this man and hope I never have to make the choice he did... and hope his faith is helping to heal his heart.